The event and party at Zouk last night was great. Josh told me to dance like nobody's watching, and I did. Why? To indulge myself in that 'moment of peace', and to hide in 'Utopia' for a little while. I know clubbing is never something constructive in life, but sometimes I just want to spoil myself in those smoky and crowded places, with loud music and heavy beats destroying my ear drums.

Since when did I become like this? Where are my values? I don't know. All that I can remember was that I promised myself that I will never ever go clubbing 3 years back.
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You said Sunday went on just like any other Sundays for you. However, it has been a very terrible day for me. Perhaps I have been the insensitive person all along. I have been hurting you time and time again with my words. I am a bastard, I know.

But one thing I don't understand is why you couldn't believe in me (even though I said I'm not concerned about that..).

Look at what I have done again. I never wanted things to turn out this way.