26 June 2005

He is right. Why am I so desperate in such things? Who am I to make such a big fuss about it?

You think. Think hard again. Figuring ways out. Yet you are not sure whether the other party gives a damn about you. You are making your own life miserable. Everyone is stepping forward. However you are still standing at the starting point. Refuse to move. People are moving. They are going to somewhere unknown, despite they have no idea if the life there will be good or bad. A loser you are. You are scared. You are scared that you can't adapt to the new environment. You can't let go of the things you own now. Because once you take a step forward, no one will know what is going to happen to these things. Will you be lucky enough to keep some back? Will you lose them all? You are scared of the consequences of moving. That's why you hold on to them tightly. Afraid that you may lose them all one day. To you, they are your life. You can't live without them. But, others think differently. They think that these things come and go. They are very sure that they will adapt the new environment well, even without these stuff. For they know, those things are not part of them. If they lose them, they are very sure that new ones will come along the way.

Why. Why are you such a loser. Why can't you be as cool as the rest? Why can't you just throw away all those things and start afresh, collecting new ones along your way to the new land?

Trying too hard will only scare people off. Asking for too much will only make you demand for more the next time.
Hida was gazing at the sky at 18:21.